A Meaningful World

Thinking

2009-06-02T01:38:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow 8am class, but i still cant sleep. When lying on bed, my mind keep appear many thing...i really wish can dun care anything just a hand snatch her to b with me but....really cant do it...
My mouth keep say i will be alright,dun worry. I really can?i also don't know....Wait her 1 year is not a problem for me...but i don't know how to pass my life in this year.
I can be happy and smile, but inside my heart is full of fucking pain and a floor of blood. Keep bleeding and bleeding.... A normal human really can survive in the life like this?? Now, i just can trust god...hope you really will help me....
My blog 'A Meaningful World'...it really so meaningful...full of feeling...struggle,pain,suffer....maybe this all is have to face by all human being. I damn miss you now, you know? my mind really can't stop thinking you now!

Pain?Or Happy Ending?

2009-05-30T00:46:00.003+08:00

Today, the time.....i making a big decision....Finally, i choose not to court her and getting closer to her anymore' is it a correct decision? Nobody will know till the end....
I just know when i writing this blog, my heart is getting pain n pain. If, at the end, she really happy be with him, i will feel happy too but now i really don't know she really does or not. Hope i really won't regret what i decide now.
I dun wish one day, when she come find me is a girl that heart is bleeding,hurt...I rather she come n tell me:'Chia Wei, i and him is getting happy n happy and he treat me very good.' Then, i will happy for her too...Sincerely, wish you be happy always...and have happy ending....

Decision

2009-05-29T03:00:00.003+08:00

Today, Me and her really can't be so close? Whenever i close to her, i really got impulse to be her bf. Everytime, when out with her, saw her sms with her bf, really feel bit jealous...Since me n her also need each other, y just we can't be together? y need suffer all this? Is it i really have to give up her?
I got plan want give up her, but always till half of the way, i fail to do so. Sum people will think i really stupid to do all this, i also don't want to be like this but....I really lost myself, and really don't know what i want. In her heart, i more important or her bf? what i had done, is it so worth? i guess the god also don't know to answer me...Always say i had done many things to her, like to depend me, i always beside her or whatever but....actually who am i in your heart? Friend?it beyond it....Couple? It a joke...
Till a day come, when i feel u really no need me and my exist is unnecessary....I will go away....with no regret....Best wishes to you two...

Manchester 0-2 Barcelona (CL Final)

2009-05-29T02:43:00.007+08:00

On 28 May,Location: Rome,Italy. A memorable day, That is Champion League Final! Between Manchester United and Barcelona. Every people from whole the world is expecting this interesting match! Me support Barcelona,haha...Because d damn MU n Ronaldo is too boastful already. Finally, a goal from Eto and Messi had stun MU and stop from from defending their champion. A really good performance from Barcelona and very nice to see MU

Thank Sami Hyypia

2009-05-27T01:54:00.005+08:00

Thanks for everything for you had done to Liverpool. You really a true legend a true Hero that help Liverpool lift so much of trophy~
All what you had done for Liverpool will always in my n all of the Liverpool's fans memory!
Wish you all the best and waiting you join the Liverpool's training team as a coach!

Close To You

2009-05-26T23:00:00.005+08:00

After i back to KL, v begin our same life again...i accompany u go eat,fetch u go dance n fetch u back...this moment i very long din have already since semester break.Today, i have it again, d feel very nice, very happy but dunno is good or not, because v really look like couple, u really look like my girlfriend but in reality you are not.
My heart is full of tremendous hope and wish you can be my girl, but i think i can't be so selfish to keep forcing you and did not care about your feeling. I know i can settle my feeling better than you, so i rather to face all this, treat all this as normal, let it come by fainted n natural :)
Now, you already come in my heart. If a day, you come tell me, at last...you choose want is together back with him then i will give up you, hopefully i really can but i still will be your guardian angel...Help you when you need me' This i can promise you..
Anyway, i wont blame anyone because i think besides Love, the god ask me come to this world is to do other thing else, i still have many thing can do n done my job as a pure human. Hehe..Me also will say all this, maybe really face too much thing in recently, let me know what the complexity in this world n between human...Feeling can give people a sweet life but also will crush your whole life, depend on how we face it and think it.
At here, I wish to tell her, my life can be wonderfull without you but my life can't be perfect without you...

A Happy Day~

2009-05-25T22:21:00.000+08:00

Today is my 1st day for advance diploma...Just 1st day,so fast start study d, sumore is a hard subject decision making..zzzz...n fall aslep in class as usual...keke...hope after few day,reali will change myself bcum more hardworking d~
Besides that,a moment that reali make me happy....Today, i go watch 'Angel and Demon' with her...Before going,it rain so heavy..reali tink me n her dun hv faith...but at d end,d rain started to slow n stop...Mayb d god gv us guide that v will face problem n hard in 1st,then at the end,me n her will happy togather..hope so la..hehe..
During watching, my eye is watching d movie but heart keep tinking n feel extremely happy...it is our 1st movie that watch togather just me n her but maybe oso d last wan,but at least got 1 time i oso feel very satisfy d, at least at the end if reali no faith, i still will have sum happy memory with her....
This movie realy got bit meaningfull to me,it make me think back that time i go buy d whole set of Dan Brown novel for my xgf...haha...i and Dan Brown realy got faith...He make me have memory with my xgf n oso with 'Her', maybe i shuld thx him...keke
Anyway, realy feel very happy..hopefully got 1day can watch movie with her as couple...

A New Challenge!!

2009-05-25T01:50:00.001+08:00

Finally i graduate ardy...Yeah,reali unexpected~i can achieve it,i should thx to my parents,friend and a secret and meaningfull person that sked me,encourage me and accompany me go out relax durind d last semester :) Now,i going to Advance Diploma,a higher level and difficult level...Many people say that advance is a very hard level,but i think i can do it,hopefully i can~hehe...Life is full of challenging n meaningfull..Gambateh to myself and all my friends around me~I will do my best!!